Shivoham Program: From Reality-Based Disorder™ to Alignment-Based Order

The Shivoham Program is the flagship pilot of Shivoham Labs, designed to bridge the frontiers of consciousness research, Tantra, and physics into practical healing and self-realization.

Leading the “I Am God” Revolution

Shivoham = “I am Shiva”

I am that, I am infinite, I am cosmic consciousness, I am the co-creator of this reality

Those with these reality-based disorders are closest to an awakening, just not provided the tools of eastern philosophy, complex sciences, and consciousness technologies to equip them into empowerment…until now

What is this?

A 12-Week Pilot Study for Reality Integration & Cosmic Alignment for Those Experiencing Reality-Based Disorders™

We live in a reality of half-truths, and having a disorder is an accurate representation of the point in time where suffering is inflicted, but for each symptom, there is a link in tantra, specifically Kashmiri Shaivism, to hitting self-realization. If you find yourself here, congrats, not only are you not broken, but you are the closest out of many to a potential awakening, thanks to the law of polarity and duality. There is no intention from my end to be your leader or savior. In fact, I know I have done my job when your symptoms alchemize into your superpower, you see yourself as a leader, and don’t need this program anymore. You are manifest god consciousness. God is within everything, but we are the ones who must remember again. Your consciousness helps co-create the very fabric of spacetime.

This pilot study explores how individuals with Reality-Based Disorders™ can re-establish coherence between mind, body, and cosmos.

Each week blends Tantric philosophy, neuroscience, computer-science analogies, and cosmological principles to rebuild the architecture of self-awareness — from the physical sheath to the bliss sheath.

The 3 Phases of the Shivoham Path

  1. Destruction (Annamaya → Pranamaya) — Release outdated mental programs and dissolve the false self through tantric philosophy’s rewiring, breathwork, sound, and meditative deconstruction.

  2. Preservation (Manomaya) — Stabilize the system by refining perception and learning cosmic-computational models of consciousness.

  3. Creation (Vijnanamaya → Anandamaya) — Recode the nervous system for coherence and create from the heart field — embodying bliss as the natural operating state and aligning with the cosmos by knowing you have god consciousness within, who is also creator in the most natural state

What You’ll Experience

Inside The 12 Week Journey

  • Weekly 1:1 coaching & check-ins with me, Shivani Upadhayay, for customized assistance with your RBD

  • Weekly lectures linking consciousness to computer science, quantum physics, and cosmology

  • Guided Nada Yoga meditations with sitar and Himalayan sound bowls for vibratory attunement

  • Tantric breath and embodiment practices to anchor consciousness into the body.

  • Reflective journaling and energy-mapping to track shifts in perception.

  • Optional live group meditations for your biofield’s coherence amplification.

  • 3 phase program, 4 weeks each, 3 weeks of education & personal work + 1 week application & integration period following the Shiva path first: destruction, then preservation, ending with creation

Shivoham Program Sign-Up

Who Is This For?

At stage 0, I am looking to specifically tackle “disorders” I myself have self-experimented on and healed, to ensure integrity of proof of concept of this independent research.

These are:

  • Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder (DPDR)

  • Dissociative Disorder

  • Existential OCD

  • Hyperawareness OCD

  • False Memory OCD

  • Scrupulosity OCD

  • Psychosis

Based on performance metrics and feedback from clients, I will inform stage 1’s trajectory and construction alongside my own application of my (lifelong and ongoing) deep research + work on more advanced RBD’s. My commitment to you is the same commitment to myself: never giving up on the search for the deepest cosmic truths and restoring order/harmony to the distortions of consciousness. Your Shivoham success is not only beneficial to you, but it is success to me, and success to the cosmos—the only thing that matters.

How it works

  • Complete a short intake form that helps me understand your goals, background, and current relationship with reality and self.

  • Meet one-on-one for a brief orientation and energetic resonance check. We’ll discuss readiness, intentions, and the philosophical lens of the work.

  • The 12-Week Pilot begins January 2026. Participants will receive weekly modules, sound meditations, and reflection prompts. Each phase deepens the bridge between consciousness science and lived experience.

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