Mahashivratri Musings: Worlds of Words
Part 1
Mahashivratri, a time in the cosmic calendar indicating:
Maha = great
Shiv = cosmic consciousness
Ratri = night
Typically, it is recommended that you stay up, have your spine straight and meditate and chant, to take in all the cosmic data. I wasn’t even intending to stay up that night, but all this information was flooding me until 3 am, and this is what Shiva and I have to say to the collective (in the end, what’s the difference, right? Shivoham Shivoham 😉 ):
Words Beneath Our World
Everything is made up of words.
I’m serious.
I was out by Red Rocks and got this feeling that if I was able to stomp through the ground enough, it could break, break so much that it would disintegrate into its tiniest constituents, and if I had the eyes for it, I would realize that at the core, the ground would be made up of words, words here being “ground” expelling out post-stomping.
I am fighting against the standard model of particle physics being the ultimate standard model of reality. I believe there may be organizing principles beyond mere subdivision.
Consciousness is the fundamental substratum, and looking at things relationally will fill in the gaps so we don’t have to constantly come up with new particles to make equations elegant and symmetrical.
Physical matter is there, but it’s made up of words, not particles at the core like we think.
Yes, there’s molecules, but if you zoom in, there’s subtler vibrations, at the supremely teeny level, I’m going to say it’s all words.
The divine is within those words.
Consciousness = salt in water, once the salt dissolves, you can’t see it, but it’s permeated and totally integrated, you will taste it in every sip.
Words are also an interesting individuated form of consciousness trying to express itself via reality creation, so it’s not like spacetime is a solid block.
Meaning that there’s words, but there’s also space between words, because even looking at this sentence right now, it’s not spelledoutlikethisandevenifitwastherearestillspacesofbreathtakenbetweenwordsatsomepoint. There’s even space between one individual word. Read every word I’ve written very slowly now. Notice. They have shapes. There is space between letters. There is space inside the singular letter itself, too. What I mean is that there is a difference between this sentence you are actively reading, and these sentences below:
If you remove the tiny silences between phonemes, speech becomes unintelligible. Continuous noise = chaos, structured bursts + gaps = information, which is quite resonant with the concept that if Shakti power was all there was, there would be no formation to the universe and the raw cosmic primordial force would burst, be chaotic, and fizzle out pretty quickly.
When Shakti and Shiva are paired (which is always true, actually it’s a bit blasphemous to refer to them as separate entities—that’s more like Purusha and Prakriti), you get expansion, power, expression, and fluidity that calcifies into form, structure, organization, and preservation.
Sound, Silence, and the Divine
John 1:1 says:
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”
In Hindu cosmology:
Brahma and Saraswati — creation and articulation — are inseparable
Shiva in the Vigyan Bhairav Tantra points to the pause between inhale and exhale when telling Shakti where to find him.
Silence in between words is Para, the transcendental, unity consciousness sound. It's just so silent, definitely beyond our current perception. If God is in the word, but God is also in the silence, word is form, but God is formless, and silence is formless. There is a balance between sound and silence.
If consciousness is fundamental, it appears in two primary ways:
silence
movement (vibration / sound / words)
This is the sophisticated interplay of Shiva and Shakti:
Shiva — witness, awareness
Shakti — movement, expression, power
There is no true separation between them at any scale. They are deeply intertwined and in love.
The Puzzle of Meaning
My current tension I want to reconcile:
How can there be universal meaning if humans assign meaning to words?
We use words to describe objects in spacetime. Words reference form. But we are the ones who assign meaning.
Objects themselves are perceivable — and for humans, perceivable usually means seeable.
To see anything: photons must bounce off the object —> those photons hit the eye —> the brain registers the data as perception which means physical matter comes back into etheric matter! Wild!
So there is a mapping:
Words → objects
This mirrors:
etheric matter → physical matter
There is symmetry here. So, it’s words first that exist in the mind and we are able to map reality to it. I guess the game becomes ensuring that our physical reality is in congruence, in symmetry, with our consciousness.
Vak as the Universal Filter
Quick recap on the layers of Vak (articulation/communication):
Para: transcendental sound
Pashyanti: pre-semantic, precognitive sound, the first differentiation from unity consciousness sound
Madhyama: inaudible internal speech (thoughts)
Vaikhari: expressed speech
In addition to fighting against the standard model of particle physics being the true standard model of reality, I’m also suggesting that, not only do I believe that the levels of Vak are implicitly demonstrating how human brains filter the universal field of cosmic consciousness, but I also now believe that EVERY cosmic creation is filtering this infinite consciousness field, yes, also through the levels of Vak.
When arguing that consciousness is the fundamental substratum from which all arises, we must understand that consciousness looks different in each creation. We need to stop being so human centered in how consciousness manifests.
Everything is interconnected, and therefore, shared in this universe, so meaning is also shared.
This is Pashyanti in action, as shared meaning happens for all levels of etheric to material reality, and Pashyanti can be represented as fractal geometry, all of which serves as the precognition, pre semantic, skeletal structure of the cosmos.
For example, the concept of spiraling in physical reality looks like negative collapse in a hurricane or tornado and also looks like negative collapse as a consciousness experience, say, after a really bad divorce, you start spiraling. Once again, the theme of symmetry from consciousness to material reality shows up.
So if spiraling in thoughts or spiraling for stars is very similar, I guess we have to think about what thoughts look like for a star, because Vaikhari for a star may look/sound like it exploding (which begs the question of what “talking” is because talking doesn’t have to have just one look!) If everything in the cosmos is expressing Vaikhari, could we come to an agreement that Vaikhari ends up being whatever makes another creation of the cosmos perceive the existence of the subject? Via sound?
For human beings, Vak looks like language, but if we want to apply Vak to every creation of the cosmos, we need to have a deeper common denominator, which is probably intention? Words have an intention for what they want to create right? With Vak, there's likely this intention paired with the levels of Vak to build reality.
Coming back to seeing physical objects made up as words, I feel humans are made up of words, too. While that may sound reductive, just think about it: when i look at a human being, I envision a particular word set tied up, which form sentences, and sentences tied up make a section of feeling or phase of thought, and all of those phases and thoughts construct a narrative, and enough narratives stacked up construct the consciousness of that human being.
I’ve only taken LSD once, on September 10th, 2024, where I encountered magical spirits, whether they were outside of me or different versions of me in spacetime is still up for debate, but the truth remains that once you enter my mind, you are me, and in the end, we must ask ourselves what is not us? These spirits showed me visions of who I am and what the universe is architecturally, and one aspect was my DNA. They zoomed into my body’s architecture, showed me the double helix model of my DNA, then they kept zooming into the double helix model until we got the the molecular level, then they STILL kept zooming in, until it turns out that those things were all words! My DNA was made up of words! Based on the content I consumed throughout my life and the frequency with which I consumed them, the prevailing sentences were "I can do anything" (Kim Possible) and "I'm not going to give up, no matter what" (Naruto) which made me wonder: I know we say DNA is a script, but what if it is REALLY a script, the way it is for actors in a play? The divine play of leela!
Why Divine Entities Speak in Metaphors
I think I finally understand why the divine speaks in riddles. It used to irritate me that the answer wouldn’t be handed to us if something beyond us understands things and could help us easily. I used to think it was to confuse or punish us, but no.
Think about it: metaphor is the bridge between the imperceptible and the perceptible.
One metaphor can hold ten interpretations.
This is where free will enters, as the divine has a great respect for us and would like us to choose our own adventure.
“Whether you think you can or you think you can’t — you’re right.” <— There isn’t one forced meaning to our reality. Meaning is co-created: the divine offers the pattern, and we interpret it. Our interpretations shape our experienced reality.
The Consent-Based Cosmos
My mind showcased the scenario of if i stepped on the ground enough that it would disintegrate into words, because I think that was the divine's way of trying to tell me that material reality as we know it just exists because of the collective consciousness meaning attached to it and that's all it is...agreed upon communication, articulation, intention, and as a result, reality creation....or maybe reality selection?
In reality, we are interacting with words, like the infinite set of all words that could exist which = word of god, but to the maximum degree.
We are in a contract with the divine and with all creations of the divine.
We never know at what unconscious level what we are consenting to. In my previous gnosis blog post, I suggested that awareness is a form of consent, in the sense of inviting the idea in to materialize. You could maybe try externally verbalizing “I do not consent to this reality” as we live in a consent based cosmos and see how that alters perception and material reality for you.
It’s like terms and conditions that we speedily scroll through and hit “agree” on without knowing what we’re agreeing to. When reality is dictated by our consent, it is really dictated by the awareness we have/don’t have. Reality, words, and the subconscious have a highly coupled relationship.
I definitely wonder: if we became hyperaware of what we’re consenting to and addressed it up to the conscious mind, how much could we bend reality? Especially if words are the foundation of material reality.
Part 2
Words, Language, and Reality Selection
How can there be universal meaning if humans assign meaning to words?
Maybe this question gets answered when consider that the divine (infinite cosmic consciousness/intelligence) pre-creates the infinite word set, where the cosmos in all of its creations and voids already have shared meaning, and we select from it. The very fact that all these words exist within a universal set indicates they have something in common (hence the shared meaning) otherwise why would they be in the same set?
Reality selection via words occurs from reality presets available to us, considering the divine created the universe through word, so everything, all infinite possibilities are already there, and our words just "tune into" it.
The Architecture of Thought Funneling
Caveat: When it comes to the philosophy of cosmic “thoughts” funneling into the human mind, there's not really a way to prove it in a way that can be logically known. It can only be awakened by your FULL consciousness. And consciousness is not localized to the brain, so your brain can't be the only thing awake. Your body needs to be awake, too. I mean, the cosmos are awake. They're doing their thing; however, the architecture of a human being is their soul, which is their consciousness connected to cosmic consciousness.
In Hindu cosmology, you have a creator, preserver, and destroyer in the cosmos. You also have it in the mind. You also have it in the body. But when we don't recognize that consciousness is everywhere, then we localize it just to the brain, and we overuse that. That's why there's overthinking and not human being. We need to be in a state of being, and that happens when all aspects of our consciousness throughout our mind and body equally are able to process.
So all that cosmic data from the etheric realm with the creation, preservation, and destruction there, it gets stuck with the creation, preservation, and destruction of thoughts, which is the root of so many problems. Several thoughts stay preserved which causes overthinking, when they could potentially get destroyed if we just processed them instead.
Cosmic Layer
creation (Brahma)
preservation (Vishnu)
destruction (Shiva)
Mind Layer
thoughts arise (filtered)
thoughts are held
thoughts move onward
Body Layer
thoughts are processed somatically
emotional energy is discharged
integration occurs
Example:
anger enters awareness
moves through mind
processed through body (e.g., exercise)
transforms into peace
Preservation then becomes a question of: what do you want to keep within your body?
This line of questioning helps support my previous statement that human beings are made up of words as well. What words stay become narratives.
Is there actual creation of reality that happens for human beings, or are we just shifting identity?
Philosophical question: do we create thoughts? I think, internally, we don't, in the truest sense, create anything; however, I do think we can create with our bodies. Creation is an external only act, but I feel preservation and destruction, can be both internal (mind) and external (body).
We are made in the creator’s image, we are creators ourselves, so this line of questioning does catalyze some dissonance in the mind, but maybe “we create our own reality” is the same philosophical bluff of free will vs. destiny in the sense that the only differentiating factor is self-awareness, ego, id, the ability to say “I”. If awareness is fundamental and self-awareness is emergent, we start assigning everything to the self. Otherwise it’s all the same, it’s just about how you look at it.
Creation and Destruction as Phase Changes
Can anything really be destroyed at the cosmic level? In thermodynamics, can anything be created or destroyed when it comes to energy? Maybe creation and destruction is an illusion. Maybe it's really a matter of preserved or processed.
When a star gets destroyed due to a collapse, yes, it's the destruction of a star, but it's probably the creation of a lot of different little meteorites.
Coming back to the architectural funneling system: destruction and creation are illusions because they are the two points, the before and after of transferring things or transforming things. So destruction is at the edge of transformation of a new creation.
Expanded at the cosmic scale, if we say creation and destruction are illusions, then that means the creation of this universe really came from the destruction of another one, and there was a transformation or a processing period where that energy was transferred from one state to another.
Perhaps this universe is just a different state of the universe before it. Enter how my wording demonstrates the limitations of being a human being, because even that statement shows I'm thinking in terms of linear spacetime. I wonder, if all of these universes exist all at once, and if we apply the fact that there's no true absolute creation or destruction, then that means all of these universes, multiple of them, are actually really just interconnected.
Knowledge of this information empowers us to make more conscious decisions. Our sense of “realistic” is hijacked from us and socialized through norms that other people agreed upon, keep agreeing upon, and impress upon newer beings (children). We can never reclaim power, because we never lose it, we just forget it, and I hope this article inspires you to remember the god within.